I am Solgado

Hello, my name is Solgado. I am the alter ego of Izzat Haikal bin Abdullah Halim. I am dry and straight forward. I dont need fancy words and sentences. Today was an amazing day. It marked the day that i have successfully persuaded Izzat Haikal to consider pursuing his study overseas. It was not an easy task to seduce him because he already has his own agendas, a well planned future beforehand if he were to study in Malaysia. His plans are firm but his heart is not. He loves to make quick and last minute improvisations to his plans in order to adapt to the upcoming unknown future.

His plan to study locally is mainly to increase the Islamic part in him. He wants to study basic Arabic language so that he becomes more appreciative of what he recites during the time of worship, be it solah, reciting the Quran or any form of worship that requires Arabic language to take part. He wants to understand this beautiful religion better and he wants to know the people around him with somewhat similar agenda. He wants to get connected with these people.

By pursuing his study locally, he believes that he has more confidence with the surrounding society. He will not be the shy guy he used to be. His vision is that he wants to be part of a responsibility. He wants to become some sort of a president for a club or anything. He wants to train himself with responsibilities mounted on his shoulders and learn to become a good leader. With such skill, he will become more organized and more charismatic. Maybe someday the leadership skill will be useful to him. Only Allah knows.

Psychology. That is an interesting subject to talk about. But why psychology? The reason behind this is because he wants more time for himself to read books, to find what kind of book he loves and to memorize facts because he is very weak in memorizing. He loves the way how scientists and geniuses think so he wants to know their secrets and creates his own style of thinking. To succeed in his own way. Mathematics is only to challange his brain, while art of any kind is for him to express himself with style. But psychology as a subject trains how he wants to perceive the world of games around him. He sees the world in a very chaotic yet interesting way.

Not forget to mention, by combining the basic Arabic language and the memorizing skill he will acquire via psychology, he hopes to memorize the Quran before he dies. Insha Allah.

One more important topic to discuss is about zine. It is a subject/a word not known to many people so you can feel free to google about it. It is short for "magazine". But it does not have a specific format. It is a free roaming artform. A perfect combination of a little bit of everything in art. Drawings, poetry and literature uniquely composed by the hands of an artist. Blogging and sharing facebook statuses are just the beginning. It is a good start to study about traffic, people's interest and being daring to share his thoughts, right or wrong, so that if only one day he has a rightful message, he will not be shy or scared of the public and critics. Be outside his comfort zone, he wants.

With an endless series of these zines, he wants to delve in this life to become a part time artist, a part time writer and a full time inviter to Islam. He wants to share the philosophy and teachings of this beautiful way of life with everyone. He wants to become great in rethorical kind of writing. So this series of zines will be the pinnacle of his great inventions because he believes that words can change the world. He wants to become the bridge between Islam and the people who is searching for the purpose of this life. 

What a big dream it is and that is just some sort of a beginning of a longer journey ahead of him, insha Allah. There are more tedious plans ahead of him, planned but not yet executed. Until a time, appointed, insha Allah. There you go. A brief plan of Izzat Haikal's secret life.

But on top of all of these, i, Solgado, have persuaded him with to consider this big opportunity before him. An opportunity for him to reinvent his plans and pursue a different path of life but to get to the same finish line. May Islam remains in his heart forever, may Allah directs him to a rightful and greater path. I am very sorry, my alter ego Izzat Haikal. You may have lost this battle in the end but i admire how strong you have been this past years. You have shown great courage and knowledge all this while. But maybe Allah has a greater plan for you, perfecting your skills and meeting the right people. Who knows but Allah. 

I pray for the best to you, Izzat Haikal. May Allah ease you towards ease. Consider this opportunity if you have the opportunity. Maybe you only have one conditional offer upon five universities you applied, but who cares if Allah has destined that path for you. The only thing that matters is how you accept the wisdom of this path. Allah's plan is better for you and it is more interesting, full of suprises. Now you can sleep well, my alter ego. Do not think too much about this. Once you get any conditional offer, work for it. If none comes to you, then Allah's plan is better. May Allah guides you forever :)